What does it take to make you happy? No really where does your happiness spring from? I don't know either, but I thought you might. Are we all that different? Again, I don't know. I have a quick wit and a analytical/syncopated/musical mind, but I'm not all that great of follow through. I have a set of conditions I like to adhere too, and I judge myself against those at all times. You might see it as a competitive nature, but I'm not necessarily trying to beat you, I may not even be aware that you are competing with me, I have to perform within my set guidelines for myself, when I fail me, I can't imagine that I haven't failed you too. If you are on my team, or depend on me , I take that responsibility serious too. I may not have the same expectations for you, I may not judge your performance against mine (or your median performance), I judge myself against my expectations of my abilities. I rarely have a good time when I fail myself. It's hard to get away with anything when the judge, jury and executioner all live under the same roof. Having passed this judgement, and condemned myself in the process, I will say that if I am in a situation where I am with good friends, I will take a few liberties with my punishment. I might even forgive an forget my own shortcomings, for the sake of the core. It's been known to happen.